Prevention signs I see around,
They sit and stare me in the face.
I never noticed them before,
I guess I thought you needed space.
I see them now and I wonder,
Why I didn’t check on you?
Maybe somewhere in my heart
I always kind of knew.
But I didn’t, I couldn’t have,
Or is that just what they say?
The thing is I should have,
But I ignored you that day.
Just like I always did somehow,
And like I did with every sign
They seem so obvious to me now,
I guess I just thought you were fine.
But how very selfish of me,
To think I knew you so well
How very selfish of me,
To put you through such hell.
How very selfish of me,
To think that you were okay,
All I wanted you to do was
Give yourself another day.
And I know I’ll never understand,
All that was going through your head,
But I don’t know how to live my life,
With everything I left unsaid.
But in this I’ve learned a lesson,
See, even grief might need a friend.
So I will carry him with me,
Until I find myself again.
I guess it will just take some time,
And hurt for quite a while.
But like I know you always did,
I will try to wear a smile.
